I feel like I’m going to explode.
Now, not in a bad way. I just feel as if I’m full of five different kinds of energies that are pushing me in a multitude of directions until focus on any one thing becomes difficult. I crave the rush that comes with motion, with creation. I want to find a concert and dance and mosh until I don’t know which direction is up any more. I want to run down a hill in the middle of the night singing disney songs at the top of my lungs. I want to get out my inks and mold a world from swirling mists.
I want to laugh and dance and write and cry and sing and shout my way into the New Year.
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| Warning: previous bouts of manic Megan have ended in parking lot lightsaber duels. |
Some of this manic energy comes from the upcoming holidays- that sweet morsel of knowledge that in two days I’ll be among the mountains and the cacti once again. That I’ll see my family and devour homecooked Mexican food and discuss politics and cakes and social norms and games and animes and strange etymologies. That two of my best friends in the entire world will be in town, and we’ll be spending part of a day together.
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| Sarah and Heather, two of the best people in the world able to vouch for the awesomeness of my plans/parties/scavenger hunts and my level of craziness. |
Some of it comes from the projects for presents that I still haven’t completed yet, but that must be done before I sleep tonight. Nothing quite like the knowledge of work to be done to dilate my pupils and send me into an energetic frenzy. And that’s not even taking into account the two projects, three potential submissions, one gig, and two ongoing stories that are taking up space on my back burners.
And some comes from the fact that I’m in a new relationship which has introduced me to a wide variety of people and- perhaps more excitingly- gotten me involved in role playing games again. I don’t think I truly realized how much I missed late night games with interesting people. The World of Darkness is an interesting system, and one that I enjoy more and more as I dive into its story. And seriously, how can you go wrong with a system called Cthulhutech? Or groups of people that encourage me to write stories in character for extra xp? Or who draw my characters?
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| See? See how awesome this is? Credit: the awesome Sethron |
Perhaps manic might be the wrong word actually. Let’s use ecstatic instead, as in rapturous delight or an overpowering emotion or exaltation… a state of sudden, intense feeling. That’s how I feel right now.
So if I seem more energetic than usual, if you hear of me making bonfires in my backyard or get seven thousand texts from me in the space of three hours, if you see me update my statuses constantly or find that I’m suddenly outside your window whispering of plans, don’t worry.
Life is just full of awesome right now and I’m riding the wave.
